I have decided today to officially revoke any poly rules or “boundaries” that I have previously had. I feel like I’m using these rules in order to justify my not getting over things and growing past things, rather than for any real and legitimate purpose. So I’m not doing it anymore. No more rules, no more crutches, no more expectations that can be broken, and no more arguments over rules I feel have been disregarded or completely ignored. I can’t feel disregarded if there ARE no rules to disregard, right?

I have now finished my first year of law school. I have had two full days of freedom so far, and have begun reflecting on my experiences of the past nine months.

Laptop.

I love my laptop. The reason I got it (it was Troy’s, but it was brand new and he’d just gotten another one) was because of law school. I have used it for a variety of things, but law school has been the primary one. Now that school is out, I find myself feeling strange about my laptop. Now it’s primary use is nothing to do with law. I wonder if this is what it feels like when people lose their jobs and get to keep their work computers…

Books.

I still haven’t put away my school books. But seeing them now makes me a special kind of repulsed. I want them to be out of my sight soon. I don’t hate the books, because I have loved being in school; however it is VACATION time, and they remind me of a really crazy time in my life that I’m pretty ready to forget for at least a month.

Lists.

I am going nuts with all the crap I want to accomplish this summer. I am going to have to start making lists if there is going to be any chance whatsoever to actually get to everything.